My youngest brother’s release from hospital looms closer. I am not looking forward to it.
I’ve been having more and more vivid dreams about my brother doing something self-destructive, coming out of it Ok and my kid sis ending up dead.
As the dream fills in and gets more detailed, I am getting more and more fearful and I’ve been loosing sleep again. I’ve talked to a person who was able to do a good dream interpretation and calm me down… Thank you @Alex
Others here have been pointing out that I’m NOT predicting the future. It sure feels that way, but as I look at this horrid dream more, I’m finding little windows where I can change the action and most likely change the outcome.
First… Do NOT let my sis get in my youngest brothers car.
Second… make sure he doesn’t have a gun
But this dream has been getting worse and worse and I’m still fighting off the idea that I’m seeing the future. So I called for an appointment and was able to see our family therapist.
Her theory… my guided discovery, just like other’s have said… my dreams are not predicting the future at all.
She says that I’m so completely angry with my younger brother that my brain is finding ways to kick him out of my life and family. What better and justifiable way then protection of my sis, and setting my brother up as a danger to my sis is a justifiable way to kick him out. That makes sense too.
I know I’m not very good with anger. I don’t like the way it taste. It’s still like bitter orange peel mixed with rancid vinegar.
Some people in my life have said extend the hand of friendship. Others have said kick him out and never speak to him again. (extreme sides always)
When I’m faced with the two extreme sides lately it makes me look for the middle of the road.
I’m so angry at my youngest brother still that it’s giving me bad dreams? I guess I can see how that would work.
But I’m still not sleeping as well as I want to, and I’m still waking up with a headache and stomach ache.