Does anyone else here struggle with anger? Between the annoying voices at times, chronic pain and a disposition towards that direction, I find I spend a lot of time being angry and miserable
When I was a teenager, I would sometimes imagine arguments and fights that I would have with people that I was mad at. I thought I had outgrown that habit of trying to guess what someone else is going to say in response, and getting pissed about it. It sounds ridiculous as I say it
But then with breaking my neck and the insurance companies and all that jazz, that bad habit has returned with a vengeance.
Iāll catch myself doing it and take a few deep breaths and try to re-direct things. But within minutes, if Iām really pissed I am back at having an imaginary conversation with whoever has pissed me off
Itās such a pointless unconstructive habit. Any advice from those who have struggled as well?
You are not aloneā¦
I lost every nerve living in this city jungle.
I dont feel anger,I feel rage
Wish I could travel far away,where are not people,just nature.
I hear you. I grew up smack-dab in the middle of hell, and adopted rage as a way of coping from a very young age. It still haunts me to this day, but obviously to a lesser degree
You would love where I live now. I am out in the sticks, between a farm on one side which is about a quarter of a mile away, and one house on the other side which is about 300 yards away. If I had my way, there would be no one within sight, but this is the best I could find and Iām happy with it
I used to have a cabin, about 2 hours north of where I live. I only paid $40,000 for it, but it is definitely out in the woods
Yes,growing upā¦
But the only thing that now bothers me is how much I hurt loved ones by rageā¦
I hope somehow in future I will stop to punnish my self.
Increasing my AP dosage helped reduce my anger and irritability but it doesnt completely get rid of them. I wish I didnt stop meds for 2yrs and getting psychosis again as I am sure it damaged my brain. In my first psychosis I was never violent unless I smoked weed. I was just suicidal. After getting on meds for the 1st time my negative symptoms were better than now.
I stopped meds for 2yrs and at the end I became violent towards my family physically sometimes. If I didnt get back on meds I would have probably became violent towards society. 4 cops calmed me and brought me to mental hospital. I didnt stop meds since then and I was never hospitalized or became violent for no reason since then.
Like if someone got angry at me I will be more angry and violent instead of just ignoring them. I wish I could just ignore them like I used to do before sz. I even get angry at my brothers.
Sounds like Iām not the only one. I am starting an online mental health course at MindBeacon.com - they custom design a schedule for you, and it is paid for here in Canada under ohip. Iāve got some hope for that, and anger management will be part of the package
Iām also considering checking myself into Homewood. They are a world-class renowned mental health and addiction recovery Hospital. Iām tired of living half a life