My philosophical rant earlier might not have been “(Hypnotically friendly) to the females here, or to the feminine.” Because they are “art” (coming from me) and “nuisance” might have been a “weasel” word. Things are not always what they appear though, in good ways…
I can do (much more); at least I have trust in myself… Gender(For me); is frankly arousing of deeper thoughts and feelings and that should be normal or palatable to hear. And a saving grace for me is that I find it mostly stimulating without being frustrating, mostly.
Anyway nothing makes me think more I can admit that. So that’s why it pours out of me from time to time. And I probably really did step into some abusive type matters(by a man; if that matters.) I have been shedding off tell-tale signs in certain ways, and it all has pros and cons mentally, so that should be convincing that it is real(at least to me).
I guess my most SORDID TRUTH is that I hold women to a higher standard… and funnily(or ironically) is that it STILL takes pointing people out(leaning in?) to call an ambulance if there’s a real emergency. (Doing what’s right; Life guarding reference.)
But am I a laughing stock now? My crime again(is conflating “Leaning In” with masculinity" Trouble separating concepts is hard for a ton of people out there.
Lastly people do read me without commenting… and I am drifting closer to making a poll asking “Should I stay or should I go?”
I am sad that I evolved into an “abnormal” on a site for misfits and cast asides.