Hi, I’m new. I was just diagnosed november 3rd, I’m feeling really overwhelmed. I’m paranoid schizophrenic and I feel like I will literally die if i get sick. I don’t know how it came to be or why it did but i feel as if lately its getting worse. I was just put on meds a week after my diagnosis and I feel like they’re working in the way of making me apathetic to the hallucinations, not stopping them. I think that’s what they’re supposed to do? not too sure. I didn’t realize at first my hallucinations were fake I just kinda thought everyone was dumb for not being as conscious of germs as i am but it’s getting bad. I’m losing so much weight because I feel like everything tastes rotten or spoiled and I’m terrified of eating. I have been trying really hard to progress but even with telling myself to eat I physically cannot do it, I will vomit if forced to it’s that bad. I had an upswing of gaining six pounds but i feel like I’ve since hit a low point again and I’m unsure how to cope. If anyone has any advice or if anyone experiences the same thing, I’d like a friend. Just someone to talk to about it.
Hey @pastelgirl.
Sorry you are suffering from sz. But this forum is a great place to get support. Hallucinations aren’t a big thing for me but certainly the meds help me put less significance on delusional stuff so maybe it is the same for you.
I don’t have a problem with food tasting bad but it sounds like a horrible experience. I hope the meds help.
Welcome to the forum.
I have probably the opposite, I believe I am immune to germs! Probably this is because I don’t get out much so less people are coughing on me. I dunno, but either way I don’t get ill very often.
People are alot like germs actually, we behave similarly to germs don’t we.
I tasted one rotten thing during my possess…i mean psychosis. I took a drink of tea shortly after watching a freaking alien walk into the room and it tasted like the most nasty rotted ■■■■ you’ve had in your mouth.
They do that. Make it taste bad. It’s in the brain.
i have so many different delusions that they’re really hard to keep up with but I feel like this delusion is taking a toll on my body. the more i dont eat the worse the hallucinations are but the worse the hallucinations are the worse i eat. I feel like I’m trapped in a downward spiral and I have no idea how to end it, if i can end it.
Before we assume it’s a gustatory hallucination let’s rule things out: When did this start? Any body-image issues? Is it all germs, or exclusively germs associated with food? Do you have a history of OCD?
You could try this: eat a small amount of food, then wait a period of time, and see how you feel and think. Example: I ate a bite of a hamburger 15 minutes ago, and I’m not dead. In the long term you can try transcranial stimulation.
All anti-psychotics seem equal as for effectiveness in regards to gustatory hallucinations.
I have to leave now, but I believe there’s a way to private message me. Feel free to do so.
I hope you feel better soon.
Freak of germs is a symptom of Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder. There’s no med for a personality disorder. Maybe ask your pdoc to see a OCPD expert.
I’ve been in and out of mental institutions my whole life and my doctor believes this was childhood onset and I honestly cannot recall a time where i did not feel this way. Even as a small child i’d wipe down everything. In my hospital stays I was diagnosed with a ton of stuff but my doctor now says scratch all that it’s paranoid schizophrenia. OCD was one diagnosis and I have to wash my hands everytime i touch something i deem as “dirty” like i refuse to touch a counter and be okay. or a door handle. I cannot and will not do it and i will hand sanitizer my hands and then wash them again. I’m not sure if i have body imagine issues because I feel like I’m not a real person compared to others. I love food but there are really low times and im stuck in this one for months and i cant eat. I will smoke to be able to eat and then i hallucinate i cant taste it. it goes from vomit to nothing. so i have to do it or i can’t eat. But the feeling it’s poisoned or bad is always there no matter what. I try having my fiance eating some and then i feel like maybe it’s okay because he ate it but i feel a lot he’s just immune. I hallucinate I’m sick a lot and i go to the hospital and nothing. And when I’m actually sick I cant even tell the difference.
I was ocd to bones, until I became homeless and I had to face catastrophic fears sleeping in homeless shelters in different bed each night along with junkies, eating in shared kitchens with homeless people etc. Yeh it kinda shakes me up, now I rent extension at garden and live alone. Given what happened I probably still have it in me at some level.
I read the DSM-V. Recently, and for OCD, the delusional activities of OCD fall under Sz. So it’s probable you have both.
im diagnosed with both, i already knew that. I just wanna know how to cope with it
There’s a subset in cognitive-behavioral therapy that, I believe, is very helpful with OCD. It’s called response interruption. It works like this: touch something you deem “dirty,” but you cannot clean your hands (in any way) for 5 minutes. Then you can clean your hands. Then the response interruption increases in time: 10 minutes, 15, 20 25, etc.