I was walking in the department store and I was afraid that i’ll be killed soon by someone like the government. I felt so hopeless and scared. Desperately need someone to believe and protect me. Just so heart broken dying and leaving my family. And i’ll be so lonely when i am dead.
Had a group of people defame me so my popularity with people was not so great. They think i did all these hideous things but i didn’t. Trying to be brave just don’t want to die and be killed.
Hi see121,
Have you spoken with your pdoc recently? It might be a good idea to see him soon if possible, it sounds like you’re going through a rough period.
Do not see a doctor about your feelings. Find a trusted friend and share your experience with others meaning you harm.
Actually, a doctor would really be a good idea, along with a trusted friend. It sounds like you’re having delusions. Ask yourself some questions. Why would the government want to kill you? What would they achieve from this? I had a really bad delusion a few weeks ago that aliens were causing diseases on Earth in an attempt to control the population and it had me really freaked out, but a few people on here were able to help me talk it out and start thinking rationally again. And I’m sorry that group of people is being really jerky to you. Do you have any close friends irl that you can turn to right now?
no one is going to murder you…it is rubbish.
take a deep breath…go for a walk in nature 
and listen to some music 
.
bunny 
hug.
take care 
Whatever you do don’t get a gun!
Things may be difficult in our government, but there are still laws that protect us and people who advocate for safety and justice of innocent citizens. I wouldn’t let that paranoia in, talk to a doctor or therapist. Everyone fears death, but most people have good intentions. things may be violent recently in our society, that’s not to say there aren’t still millions of good people in the world, and the likelihood of the government going after you in a department store is zero. Unless you were a true criminal, which I assume you are not, then you are safe. Our world is full of people, in the government too, who genuinely care about the welfare of everyone. The difficulties are systematic, and there are people speaking out against crime. Try to hold onto the good moments in life and not dwell on possibilities.
The government will not kill you. But there are people out there in the world who really do kill people. They are called murderers. But avoid bad areas, and don’t hang around the wrong people and that will lessen your chance of being killed.
I’ve driven to NYC, CA, MD, VA, etc. I’ve met lots of people, and I’ve accepted and respected every one of them. You can never feel completely safe, however if you give into fear or depression then you are giving your control over to something else. If you let complex associations bother you, then you will constantly feel insecure. Rather believe that we are still who we are, then what we fear we are becoming, I do not fear death, however I don’t like bullying or violence. It’d be nice if instead of being degraded by everyone around me, someone understood me and if they did, they weren’t living in constant denial of the capabilities of the human soul. Love outweighs all the world’s greatest terrors, freedom is worth more than the ocean in value, and the ocean is our hope for the future of mankind.
Take a long look at everything outside yourself.you. Do you see violence everywhere? Anywhere? Are people killing each other on your street? Have you ever, or do you ever, see a weapon in the hands of anyone but the police? Have you ever seen the police with guns drawn? Notice how calm, peaceful and orderly everything is. People are just going about their business. We have a slogan in Recovery International: “Inner and outer danger.”
One time I thought people were trying to get me to kill myself. I engaged in all sorts of strange behavior.
I have people hate my intrusive thoughts and wanting me dead. They call me a racist, immoral, and obsene. I made the Pope, the president, the Dali Lama upset at me so I feel someone is going to muder me. I know I’m a nobody but I feel I’m a gonner . What can u do? I hope this is all inside my head.
I can assure you it’s just all inside your head. 
2 years is a long time. And as you can see nothing’s happened since you originally posted this.
But 2 years is a long time to be in distress like this. Does your doctor know about this?
I think see is on meds … but whatever they are, it might be time for something else.
The Dalai Lama, Pope and president have no idea who you are. But at least 2 of them would desire your healing, and the other might shrug and have some chocolate cake.
But I’m afraid I offended them.
I know, but you didn’t. They don’t even know you exist - and if they did, harming you would not be on their “to-do” list. 2 of them are holy men and the other is busy with other problems. Plus he’d probably just tweet something nasty.