Hello to everyone.ever since I’ ve been diagnosed with sz I get fear once in a while. Fear mostly of the future, fear of meds as well. I am on a depot and everytime I get the injection it gets worse first week. I do not hear voices, but there’s a fear that makes me compulsive. To get rid of the fear I smoke cigaretes or I eat food. Anything that gets into my mouth makes me forget fost a second about that fear. Fear of the future fear of lack of money fear of health fear of not being able to be up to the tasks.how do you overcome that fear? Do you have other compuly behaviours?
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I am not immortal even i would die one day.
So what the meaning of it all, should i fear of death? No.
Fear is good once a while but if that fear sticks on to you. Either its false or i am not acting on it.
There are many thinks i woul like to share but if i talk of it , it becomes real in my thoughts.
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The one thing I can say is that it can better. It does get better. I used to be afraid of leaving the house to go to the clinic or the bank or any far distances. Now it does not bother me. It happened around the time I started walking and eating healthier and doing other things that made me feel confident and good about myself.
What are some things that make you feel good about yourself? What are some things that give you confidence? What makes you love yourself?
Also, dont forget to talk to your doctor about these fears and compulsion and the feelings on the first week of your depot.
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I use to be afraid of being sz but it gets easier if you just accept it and move on.
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I used to love photography, but I am so tired because of the meds that right now I can not carry my equipement. I nees a smaller camera. Also I do not get the same emotions from the pics as I used to get. Now everything seems useles. I used to see the beauty in the world in life, beautyof life and now everythinh sèems to make no sense. It is disturbing.
Lately I am usei g my phone to check on this forum and you guys help a lot. All of you are very brave and I must say I am affraid to live with lack of emotion. I used to love people and kids, but those emotion seems so far away now.
I’ve picked up spanish clases on duolingo, seems fun and engaging, but I can not do it for more than 15 min. Thanks to the meds i"ve been taken for the past 3 months now when I got diagnosed
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@Davincii I am with you on this. I have exact same feeling about people, things and life. Nothing is exciting. I am not able to love the nature, people, hobbies, work, physical exercise and on and on.
You are able to do things before. I have no point of reference from childhood. Always been blunt and emotion less and less intelligent. I know it for a fact and there is no escaping it. But others have different opinions about me.
I am a nobody in this vast world and universe right from start and till the end. But there are certain things I am trying not sure if that will help me or not. I am endlessly trying but very meagre chances of improvement.
Waiting for either the end comes soon or see some positive changes. Also not sure how much can I depend on medicines and therapy. What good is it when the illness beats the crap out of the entire brain functions and system of medical trials.
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I had that problem as well, but I kept pushing at it. My love of photography and skill at it returned.
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I had that problem as well, but I kept pushing at it. My love of photography and skill at it returned.
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So one step at the time. It is hard when u feel exhausted by medicine and lack of motivation.
How did u manage to take the first steps @shutterbug ?
My first step was deciding that I would recover. And that I would tolerate whatever discomfort was needed to achieve that goal. I have found that getting into the habit of being busy carries one past the exhaustion. Once you get moving it’s easier to keep moving. Once you stop you have to do it all over again, so I don’t stop.
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