You know I thought about the game a bit it’s kind of annoying imo there’s something about it that is really boring at times and it can be fun if you’re the people you’re spending with are good at conversation and your friends with them already but…
I used to go to a sunday dance event in DC. It was fun at first, and I made a lot of friends and socialized, but eventually it got old. Maybe that’s what’s going on with you, but everyone is different and I don’t know your story. What I will say is that I always liked seeing my friends on the dance floor, so maybe you would enjoy it more if you made friends with those people.
I’d take it a day at a time. You don’t have to decide right now if you never want to go back, you can just say “hey, today I don’t feel like dealing with socializing,” while still keeping your options open for next time. You may feel more into it next time or the time after that.
I understand how you feel so much. I also am in a similar situation regarding socializing. I hope you feel better about it today. I hear that Magic is a good game and enjoyable and a good hobby. Maybe you can get lost in your love for the game and focus on that. Maybe that could help make the socializing part a bit easier? Knowing that you have that in common with these people already. I guess knowing that would help me feel a tiny bit more at ease if I kept that in mind. Good luck to you with your socializing!