i am writting this as a seroius question ;
i write occasionaly what i see on this forum and it gets a strange response from some of you…
e.g…" weren’t you fearfull " …or even disbelief that i am making it up !?!
who exactly told you to be scared of what you see, and hear and smell…?
was it the shrink or the psychologist or your parents and siblings or society or religion ?
i see/hear/smell things like i am on ’ speed '…yes it is annoying, yes it can send me mad at times when i am concentrating on other things.
but fearful ’ no '.
some of you are not fearful…the things you see/hear don’t bother you.
but why are so many afraid ?
to me everything i see and hear is real, in theory this should freak me out more , but it does not, it brings me comfort.
i am not having a go at any one …it is just a curious question i have…
i find it unfair that we are supposed to be fearful of what we see and hear…
why so much fear ?
take care
p.s nobody ever told me to be afraid of what i see, maybe i was lucky.
I was in the parking lot the other day and I thought. “what if someone walked up and beheaded me?” silly paranoia from ISIS hype. but there have been several beheadings in my state. scared me a bit.
I had a very difficult time driving today, extremely paranoid, hyper aware and was probably somewhat of a danger to others on the road. I think you handle yourself great if you face your fear head on. I seek that quality too, I just don’t know what’s waiting for me on the other end. When I can’t imagine how fearful a situation is going to be, I also can’t imagine how to deal with that specific situation, and that is what drives me into fear. I do very well after the fear strikes, just have a difficult time in the preparation of the inevitable.
@jukebox
@Wanderlust
thank you for your responses…it is a quandary.
take care
if it makes you feel any better my mother in law had a fear when the sydney olympics was on. that as she was being driven across the sydney harbour bridge, the bridge would be blown up by terrorists !
and i was the sz, trying to reassure her that it would not happen.
and it stopped her from going.
she is not mentally ill at all…and some of her friends had the exact same fear !
take care
I’m afraid of physical violence. And of going crazy too. When I do find someone who is afraid of me, a 100% of the time I pity them and I back off. Which they take full advantage of. Kids and teenagers are great at this. I just want to be left alone. I feel like everyone is fooling me. They make me think I don’t know what I know. I’ve said this often. I treat women as equals until they start trying to trick me and use me. My life with women is like when Reagan ended the cold war. We were equal with Russia. Russia was equal with us in the arms race. But by something called dente we got them to give up the arms race and let us win. We convinced them to let us win. It was the biggest con game in recent times. Women are the same way. They let us help them to become superior. And I’m lost in the shuffle. I have enough problems being intimidated by my fellow men. I’m of the opinion that if people can’t win, they will drag you down with them. Sorry for the rant. Just tired of being low man on the totem pole, when I face what everybody else does on a daily basis but I get no credit.
Didn’t you once say that Mrs. Sith was scary? It is maybe a different kind of fear to be afraid of someone real that you are close to, but I thought I remembered that because my wife scares me sometimes and I thought I knew what you meant.
P.S. I need a shower too.
mrs. sith is a sith lord…so yes very scary…!?!
maybe you are right it is a different kind of fear.
good luck on the shower front…i’m on my third week…!?!
take care
It’s just hormonal imbalance that causes you the fear or voices it will go away with medications trust me.
Same with me.
Why fear what isn’t the same, not known, or unfamiliar?
Even if something wanted to kill me, doubt I would do anything but open the door and welcome it in.
I’m not afraid of death. I’m afraid of pain. Also I am paranoid and think ppl out doors will stab me. I belive they are laughing at me. I do reality check every time. But the feeling is strong.
What if you knew it didn’t want to kill you, but something worse? Would you be fearful then?
Reenukar, I’ve been on every cocktail in the book. Personally they don’t go away, but the opposite. It’s not hormones, but real life chaos that most never experience. I’m glad you don’t go through these episodes though, and meds do help a lot of people thank goodness.
I can’t think of anything worse than what I have already experienced growing up, and in a marriage less than ideal? (a nice way of putting it).
Nothing scares me more than an individual that presents as a good, hard working, honest, and smart upstanding individual that has 2faces.
I think the majority of the population puts on an act to portray what they want others to view them as. Don’t trust anyone that just presents qualities, but rather put your trust in individuals who prove themselves over time through character and actions. Have respect for yourself and let the good ones come to you. On your marriage, be honest w/your partner and express your needs, if they don’t meet hers/his then build a plan together that will be beneficial for both of you. Pray and ask for guidance from your higher power, and take charge of your needs. You can’t help anyone until you have control over your own life. Good luck, Csummers
It took me a long time, but I finally had enough and stopped playing the game.
It’s never too late to start over and take control of your life.
Some people suffer an anxiety component with symptoms of SZ so may explain the fear. I also think the more your dealing with symptoms the more you build up resistance to them. We humans (sorry @darksith) have a capacity to cope with almost all environments or change them to our making. But dealing with the irrational maynot in the end be a healthy way to deal with but who can tell?
I don’t think my son fears what he sees. Not to my knowledge anyways. I’m glad that it doesn’t although if it did then it might be easier to keep him treatment compliant 
But I would rather it this way. He shouldn’t be afraid of his own mind.
This is a great ponder… The root of fear.
Who taught it to us… what became engrained in us that trained us to be fearful…
I find that my fear doesn’t come from the hallucinations… unless I’m really crumbling… but then it’s like all the channels are blow wide open and everything is too loud, bright, noisy, confusing… then I react poorly.
But when I wake up and the walls are rippling and the floor is having a bit of a wave and the cat is floating around in the corner of my eye… I just have to take a moment and let it settle.
My fear and panic comes from my delusions and catastrophic thinking.
I think the point I’m rambling to make is… You know your own demons. Maybe we come to terms with our own demons…
If I saw your demon… I’d most likely freak. If you came over to my place and saw my flying cat and breathing piano… you might feel very uncomfortable. If that makes any sense.
I’ve found a great deal of fear when ill. Paranoia breeds fear. It doesn’t always feel that way when I’m sick but after I get stable I look back and see that there was a monumental amount of fear.