First, I get really confused about everything. I don’t know why I’m saying what I’m saying, why I’m doing what I’m doing. I’m not sure where I am. I don’t know why I’m standing outside or inside, I don’t know why stuff is moving around me. (cars or people) Even my own apartment doesn’t look right. AlI light gets too bright, sound gets too loud, warm feels too hot and cool fells freezing. I start getting really hyper and panicky, I start talking really fast and the word salad begins to kick in, then the voices really start to scream. My vision starts to pulse. Sometimes I have a personal earthquake.
I feel like I need to run. The kid sis will help me get outside to a quiet space so I can scream at a tree or something. She’ll put me in the back seat of her station wagon and put a blanket over me so I calm down and don’t freak out on her driving.
After that my memory gets fuzed with hallucinations and delusions. Then I’m gone. I’ll come back to lucid reality when it runs it’s course and I calm down.