“My life story of psychosis”
At 13 my world came crumbling down delusions of my parents being in a cult constantly made me frown and wanna cry is this delusion true I wanna die
At 14 I went and begged for help the therapist said I was lying and told me to go ■■■■ myself
By 16 I was severely manic the world no longer sucked I ended up stealing I flooding sinks i thought it was fun but my world started going downhill from there I could not breathe my psychosis was gonna kill me
By 17 I thought I was gonna die the voices were horrible I was going insane it felt like bugs were eating my brain
I’m gonna skip a year and go to 19 I felt scared the Norwegian government is out to get me I grab a knife I thought they were gonna throw me in jail and it would be for life I won’t get bail
At 20 I was in a good place I was helping non verbal kids I felt like I won in life little did I know I was in for another fight
At first it felt magical I felt on top of the world I can cure cancer or so I thought I ran out of the house with no shoes it was 40 below I didn’t realize that I was sick I saw the world through magical glasses and couldn’t fully grasp it
Then I became 22 I developed cardiomyopathy and didn’t know what to do the paranoia was drowning me I took extra meds klonopin and Ativan were my meds of choice I was told I could of died that would of been a shame I would of been the culprit I’d be the one to blame
Skip over to 25 i was severely depressed they gave me to much Zoloft it started to give me a manic rush but it quickly turned out to suck it eventually made me sad it ended quick into a mixed episode I had enough of it
I wanted to get a gun made of gold to take my life only the best would do I didn’t want anything that wasn’t cheap I wanted to go away from the world in a way that can’t be beat
My world started to get better at 28 they finally found the right meds my head was clear and I no longer wanted to disappear
I’m 29 now life is still fun I once thought it was over but It has just begun
Never give up there is hope and remember your not alone