A Poem: Cranky

[everhopeful]

Feeling cranky is
Better than feeling
Nothing
At all.

[Ooorgle]

Maybe, at least it’s something other than the hollow void of numbness. But I find both are exhausting.

When I do the cranky dance, when the llama starts spitting venom, I have a bad habit of hurting people in my wake. It isn’t fair to others.

Sometimes we can’t help it, that’s human. But I don’t want to make it a default setting.

Absurdism helped me. Nothing means anything until I place value on it.

There’s nothing here, but what is here is mine.

shrugs

Thanks E.H., good one.

[Zoe]

Hmm that is a good question.

I don’t know.

I’ve felt nothing at all except cranky on 15mg abilify

I guess that is bad.

Feeling nothing at all?

I’ve never had that,

[Mr_Hope]

You mean down stairs? Jk

But jokes aside, yes. I had a period in life when I was on higher dose of medication and all normal feelings were drastically diminished. I didn’t even know how to get angry almost. Feelings guide us even if they are negative feelings.