I had four months sober. All it took was an office party and a little peer pressure for me to crack.
The office party was a farewell get together as our company had just laid everyone off. It came at a time when I quit my other job for performance reasons. I had in these four months turned down the chance to use on several occasions. I let my guard down when my (former) co-worker showed me her secret Santa gift- a jar of pot! Four months had elapsed since I last used but I made the decision to break sobriety.
If you are familiar with my posts, you might know that I am a proponent of cbd rich mj (hence the username). But this was thc heavy mj and immediately I began to dissociate. I went completely bonkers at the bar with my former co-workers. It was so much fun but I probably freaked the bejeezers out of everyone. The"quiet" me had morphed into a beast.
Fast forward to today and I do not regret what took place that night. Odds are I won’t see any of them again and if I do at least we will have something to talk about. I don’t intend to use again as I was kinda manic the two to three days since. Was it worth it? My heart says yes but my head says no. In my book, the heart wins.