Wanna Hear a Secret (???) ,
JESUS Talked to me for About three Weeks … ,
One Day e(Y)e Got Back From my Walk to tha Store and Greeted my Pup LACY … ,
Grabbed a Sheet and Started Floating it Around Her , Jus to See Her Smile … ,
JESUS Then Screamed While he was Crying … ,
“I CANT BELIEVE THEY ARE DOING THIS TO YOU” … ,
e(Y)e Agreed and we Talked Some More … ,
Jesus Has Already Returned .
Cue depeche mode. Own personal Jesus
THE BOTTOM LINE is a Great Song … ,
Thanks for Reminding me … ,
Used to Have that Album , Long Long T(Y)me Ago … … …
(Whispers). Reach out and touch faith
Marilyn Manson is Pretty Cool Too … ,
but You Probs Already Know that … … …
Saw him live last summer. 'Twas a good one!
Lot of good energy
Since You Staying Here for a Lil While … ,
Meds (OR) No Meds (???) ,
& ,
Voices (OR) No Voices (???)
Well, I hate the meds almost as much as I hate this parasitic illness, but after having 8 psychotic breaks i would say take the damn things like everybody else.
I’m not willing to have another episode.
I’ll take them until something better comes along and then just like everybody else I’ll say, remember when all we had was latuda? etc etc
It’s your call but I say take em.
Thank You For Your Participation Within my Simple Questions … ,
and e(Y)e Take All tha Meds Cause they Don’t Take Away my Voices … ,
Which Answers my Second Question … ,
Yap Yap for my Voices … ,
So they Don’t go Anywhere … … …
Yea but if you don’t take them you could become delusional and paranoid too no? I could live with voices but I couldn’t live with thinking that someone put arsenic in my tuna fish
Your Fears are Your Fears … ,
Your Fears and Yours Alone … ,
How Can One Escape tha Center of their Fears and Live Happily (???) ,
Me e(Y)e am Unsure … ,
It Seems Sometimes e(Y)e am Hated for Being myself … ,
In Which e(Y)e Rule MY World … ,
and No Naught thee World … ,
MY World .
Or I’m stuck inside because the Colombian cartel is sending a hit squad after me. That’s crazy ■■■■ man voices are just subconscious thoughts you can tune those out. But the break with reality is what is terrifying.
I don’t know @ATARI. I don’t know enough about you. You seem like good people though. And as someone who has suffered greatly for 16 years with some form of psychosis I would have to be honest and tell you that in my experience it is not worth going crazy over taking the meds.
Yes they suck. I stay inside and write letters to the NIH some days I’m so unhappy with these damn things but that’s all they got right now. You won’t ever recover at all if you keep repeating the cycle of hospitalization and institutions.
We got dealt a bad hand man.
I can’t believe that I need them to function.
That I will actually have a breakdown without them
That’s some crazy ■■■■ that I just can’t accept so o avoid thinking about it, which I’ve never had the tremendous displeasure of ever having to do about anything
Well ,
On a Slightly Different Subject … ,
Life is Precious ,
and ,
All that is Living is Precious … ,
We Should all Try to Look throo Another’s Reality Lens and Realize that it’s Naught Always Easy … ,
For Any Creature … ,
Many Uphill Battles … ,
& ,
Forces to Lean into in Order to Remain Standing … ,
Faith is a Great Word to Hold Onto When You Are Lost / Alone /&/ Saddened (by) What You See , Feel , Taste and (OR) Touch … ,
It’s a Delicate Balance … ,
Our Lives … ,
A Completely Delicate Balance … ,
So Stay Strong and Let Your Heart Guide You Throo Trials and Tribulations … ,
Oh ,
and Be Yourself and Don’t be Afraid to Laugh (OR) Smile (OR) Even Cry (when your time is rite) … ,
Your Heart hasn’t Given Up on You … ,
So Don’t Give Up on Yourself … ,
Ok Who Wants Cereal (???) ,
Cinnamon Toast Crunch , Fruity Pebbles and (OR) Coco Pebbles (???) ,
All ya Gotta do is Answer my Questions (!!!) ,
Meds (OR) No Meds (to dream and pretend) … ,
Voices (OR) No Voices (to dream and pretend) … ,
Tha Greatest Thread that has Ever Existed is Rite Here (!!!) ,
Don’t Miss Out on a Living Legend … ,
THAT"S ME (!!!) ,
N e Hoo ,
Truth (OR) Naught … ,
Tha Questions are Running Out of Breath … ,
Who Ever thot that , that Could Happen (???) ,
Weird Universe … ,
Weird Stars … ,
and Most of all … ,
WEIRD PEOPLES (!!!) ,
Yap Yap ,
Weird Peoples .
@ATARI Your stories are awesome and engaging, and I’m glad to have you on these forums. Please share your more of your experiences.
Well ,
Thank You for Your Kind Words … ,
Some of my Stories are Heartbreaking , but it Helps to Throw it Out … ,
Doesn’t make me Forget About tha Bad T(Y)me$ … ,
but More so Helps me Find Comfort to Know Somehow Someway , e(Y)e’m Naught Alone … ,
N e Hoo , e(Y)e Have a Song for You … ,
(long ago song) - (still one of my fav’s) - (long ago song)
Ok Here’s Another One … ,
e(Y)e Believe a Couple Years Ago … ,
My Memory isn’t tha Best … ,
but Certain things You Jus Can’t Forget … ,
Ok so … ,
It was New Years Eve … ,
and e(Y)e Wanted to Hang out with Family … ,
e(Y)e Have no Car and No One Called … ,
So e(Y)e Ended Up Walking to tha Front Door and Collapsing to tha Floor Crying … ,
e(Y)e Would have my Head Buried in my Lap and Continue to Look at tha Door with Tears … ,
Then e(Y)e Decided to try and Find a way to my Aunts House … ,
e(Y)e Walked Outside and Crossed tha Street to a Neighbor e(Y)e Barely Knew … ,
To Ask if they Would Give me a Ride to my Aunt House … ,
She tha Mother Answered tha Door and Pretty Much Smiled and Asked me What’s Up … ,
e(Y)e Pretty Much Said , , ,
“can you drive me to my aunts house for this new years eve” … ,
She Said “of course! , hold on a minute” … ,
She Walked Back into her House and e(Y)e Waited … ,
3 to Five Minutes L8tur She Returned with Keys in her hand and we Both Got in tha Car … ,
After About 30 minutes we Made it to My Aunts House … ,
My Uncle was Holding Onto His Sons Young Young Young Kid and tha Kid Seemed Happi and Was Jus Enjoying His New Years … ,
My Plan Was to Watch tha Fireworks Around that Neighborhood with my Aunt and Uncle … ,
but as e(Y)e Started talking to tha Wall in tha Garage where my Aunt was Smoking a Cigarette , e(Y)e Realized , , , e(Y)e Had Some Messed Up Issues … ,
but e(Y)e Didn’t Care … ,
e(Y)e Kept Talking to tha Wall and Would Look at my Aunt L(Y)Ke it Was Her Fault … ,
Finally e(Y)e Decided to Leave … ,
As my Neighbor was Waiting in Her Car my Aunt Followed me to it … ,
and She Talked to my Neighbor a Few Minnutes as tha Window was Rolled Down … ,
THEN , My Aunt Bent Her Index Finger All Strangely and Said , , ,
“I"M GOING TO TOUCH YOU.” … ,
and Started Slowly Getting Her Finger Near my Shoulder … ,
e(Y)e Said Seriously , , ,
“if you touch me i’m going to punch you in the throat.” … ,
She Spun Quickly and Walked into her House … ,
She Was Calling tha Cops … ,
Five Minutes L8tur a Cop and an Ambulance Arrived … ,
Tha Cop Much Taller then me Stood in Front of me and Asked me Many Personal Paperwork Questions … ,
What’s Your name Where’s Your i.d. Where do You Live , What’s Your Social Security Number … ,
e(Y)e Answered them Clearly and then One of thee Ambulance Peoples Asked me to Lift Up tha Sleeve of my Shirt , so they Could see if e(Y)e Had Been Cutting Myself … ,
e(Y)e Wasn’t and they Smiled … ,
THEN (!!!) ,
Tha Cop Started to Ask me What was e(Y)e Going to do When e(Y)e Got Home … ,
e(Y)e Said , , ,
“i’m going to listen to some music and chill” … ,
He Asked Again … ,
e(Y)e Said Calmly … ,
“i’m going to listen to some music and chill” … ,
He Asked tha Same Question , Again and Again and Again and Again … ,
Finally He Stopped and Walked up tha Porch Stairs and Walked inside tha House in Order to Make Plans for my Ride (OR) Ask my Aunt Some Questions … ,
e(Y)e Dunno for Sure , He Closed tha Door Behind His-Self … ,
N e Hoo After a Few More Minutes tha Cop Returned and Asked me if it Would be Ok For my Uncle to Drive me Home … ,
e(Y)e Felt Relief and Said “yes of course” … ,
During all thus Chaos e(Y)e Hugged tha Ambulance Team and they Smiled … ,
SO THERE ,
e(Y)e Got Some Love on New Years Eve … ,
Ok Long Story but Why Naught Ya’know … … … ,
Thee End (!!!)