And this somehow makes me look vulnerable and makes some people take advantage of me. I hate the sound of my voice because I think it makes me sound stupid. Everybody says it doesn’t but it this insecurity I have about myself. In my younger years I have been in rough children’s homes/group homes and have been adaptable in bad situations without much bullying. I hardly had people pick on me when I was younger and was thought to be one of the tough kids… I do fear I come across as special needs though. This makes me reluctant to speak in public as it causes anxiety.
I think it’s fairly common to be insecure about oneself. Do you have a therapist who can work on your self confidence with you? It might help. Sz can make speech irregular, but since I’ve never heard you speak I don’t know if you sound that way. But I think you need to work on self confidence. That’s something I’m working on now myself. I know it’s not easy. It’s actually hard. But I think it can be worth it to at least try to work on self esteem.
I think one of the things is that when people are in conversation I can’t join in as I can’t think of things to say quickly enough and my lack of confidence. Your right @LilyoftheValley I need to work on this.
I don’t do well in conversations either. I don’t think I come off special needs exactly but I don’t think I come off very bright. So I think I know how you feel. It sort of makes you just want to keep quiet and let others run the conversation.