i used to have Annette, who was a goddess that was living in my mind, controlling my mind & my thoughts. in my psychosis I wrote a love letter to Annette asking her to marry me and I wrote some religious rants on the internet for her sake praising her god-like qualities & smell & aura etc. Later Isidore & Louisa popped up. they are like machines. they talk to me when i am quiet. they discuss with me or with each other or they insult me. maybe they are the implants in my brain talking. when I have hallucinations i connect them with a delusion-story. now i had them talking and I linked them to the bugs in my brain and i thought they were bugs talking.
But the main thing is you are able to see that it’s not real, it’s a hallucination. We’re you able to before meds?
with Annette no. she was a real goddess, an entity living in my mind. now even when i have hallucinations, I know it’s my mind.
How long since you started meds? Perhaps they need time to kick in or you and your doc needs to find what works
I changed meds and now i am on risperidone for about a month… i feel tempted to quit them and dive into psychosis though. the psychiatrist said that I should stay here in reality and dont get lost in world of imagination.
but the episode with Annette was divine & beautiful. it was good psychosis, if i may say so.
Psychosis doesn’t have to be unpleasant but if it’s not grounded in reality it is important to be looked into … I think perhaps talk to your dr she or he will tell you next steps cos I think one month Should be a good amount of time for the psychosis to subside
it subsided. I am ok now. recently i had a quasi-psychotic episode that was prevented easily. it wasn’t that powerful. everything became dream-like, I was confused, voices started etc. i could sense that an episode was coming. anyway i took my meds and it subsided