I tried many times, but can’t answer the question.
I had sz from a very early age so it was normal - that is how I new my life.
I had to be hospitalized from 13-16 from other medical issues and also sz. So then hospital became normal.
Then my other medical went into remission and I was back to just day-to-day sz = normal learning to cope in isolation except immediate family became normal.
That was my sz life for about 10 yrs, then it sz seemed to go into remission and I felt strange like not in my life. Then I learned to live like norms - but always fearful it would end. I was functional for almost 5yrs.
Then full blown out psychotic break again. so hospital and back to being sz fulltime. I was home again.
Then overdrugged on my meds by pdoc and just felt nothing slept all the time. That was the worse. Now working on getting back to just being sz normal.