That is wise.
I’m calling them unhappy but really right now I’m the one who flustered. Kind of their fault though. Kind of my own. Round and round it goes.
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yeah me too… our personal spaces are the most important, who we share them with even more.
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I read somewhere once that people do the best they can with what they are given.
I had to cut a lot of people of my life because I thought they didn’t know how to be friends. It sucks man, I’m sorry
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It’s cool.
This crowd is structured around my brother and my cousin. I mean they’ll always be out there. No one gets out of this town alive.
My other friends were pretty cool the other day. That was a nice change.
In small doses people typically seem to treat each other better. Then niceness wears off. It’s like a science in itself.
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Idk man, people are pretty ■■■■■■ up, we szs deal with ■■■■ that scares them out of control, do you think that influences in any way your relationship with them?
My other “friends” acted like it was an act of charity to hang out with me at one point. lol… pretty sad, actually it was the other way around.
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Probably. At one point three of them kind of ganged up on me and started calling me weird. Not in a bullying way. They just through out the word. One of the dudes was like “its a good kind of weird” “I wanna be weird with you all day”
These people were incredibly high though. I don’t like judgmentalism. I’m just this thing stuck in this body. That’s how everyone is. People are always trying to get the one up on people.
But yeah I’m the schizophrenic. I’m pretty open about it too. I probably shouldn’t be, but this ■■■■ sucks. Leaves me feeling weird and people pick up on that. Or something.
Why give them the time any more? They have no ■■■■■■■ idea what I’ve been through and what I continue to go through. They are lucky as hell.
And why the ■■■■ to I feel like I have to get out there and compete on that world stage. They make it difficult to even stand in a public place.
Went to a glass blowing shop. There was this pipe that had an octopus tentacle… It was a strange pipe I hadn’t seen one before. I picked it up and was looking over it wondering how they formed the shape of it. sure enough some ■■■■■■■ dude was like “Does that arouse you?” like wtf man. I was drunk and just laughed it off and said some stupid ■■■■. Seriously though. Why would the dude bother talking to me? Especially choosing to say that.
■■■■ everything I remember about the last 24 hours seems like a waste.
It’s good you’re open about it, I wish I was a little more, but here the stigma is worse I believe, people just don’t understand and label crazy almost immediatly. And it’s a disease, it’s not contagious, and we just have to live with it. Others aren’t even in the mix here, it’s a lonely illness, nobody really understands.
Social behaviours make me intringued and repell me at the same time. Our generation is weird.
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This is one I don’t want to like, but I find myself listening to it a lot.
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No I have mixed feelings about it being open about it. I mean it’s a factor in my life though. Sometimes it’s necessary to mention when explaining things. Like why I only worked at goodcents for 2 days.
It’s becoming less of an issue. I’m pretty used to the illness and don’t feel that “sick” any more. It still seems to be getting better. Still seems hella real though. Makes these people seem even more like pricks.
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Probably the weirdest. Raised on porn and marijuana.
People really do just accept this shitty culture and social disposition as the way things are. Just like that john lennon song was talking about. Drive the people crazy who go against the grain.
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lol true.
I found shelter in my mentally ill friends, they support me and understand vaguelly what I go through, and one of them had to put up with a lot of my ■■■■ during the worst part of my psychosis, and still sticks around with her own ■■■■ to handle so thats good. I feel lucky because of that. Harder than losing the friends was losing the drugs and the booze, was pretty addictive behaviour for me. Glad I did it though, almost a year ago. Pretty proud of myself for that one. I was one of the rare cases that doctors didn’t believe me when I said I had a problem with alcohol lol But it was cold turkey, never again.
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After quitting tobacco I’m sure I can get the coffee/alcohol under control. It has kind of spiked in the last week. I quit blacking out though lol.
Anyways it’s all got to go. I just want unbroken peace and stability. I’m lucky for having the placement in life I have and that should be enough.
Its when time seems to move slower that I get anxious.
I have no mentally ill friends. I mean the aforementioned BP girl was supposed to be my mentally ill friend, but BP and SZ are very different.
I’m starting to feel better. Thanks @minnii
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Anytime 
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ooooo double header
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Pixies! Nice, haven’t thought about them in a long time aha
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Yeah they came up in conversation the other night. Been floating around in my head the whole time.
I am un chein andalusia
gotta add this one too
Doolittle was the ■■■■
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