I want new boobs too.
Silicon implants but I do not think I will get it as a Xmas gift.
I want a few other things I will not write here.
My mum in Sweden is sending me books and lollies which is sweet as it encourages me to read .
She might give me some money too.
My father is complicated because I thought he molested me and always put me down for not being smart enough productive enough nor pretty enough.
But recently he said he is proud of me.
I think it could of been a delusion and even if it was not I would forgive him.
I had a delusion that another man was my real father and I thought he was Muslim for quiet some time.
I feel him in my body sometimes.
I love him I think but I can not stand to feel …
Then I thought he was not Muslim but my father but my father on paper is my father and I apologise.
I hope he loves me.
I pray to improve my relationships.
I was paranoid about all my family.
I was going natural Ferrell n vegan style but decided I want to modify my body with tattoos and other things.
I got a box of mangoes once and that was a great Xmas gift.
I also love lychees and custard apple.
When I lived by myself I could afford them but since I moved I have less money for such tasteful delights.
I have heaps of things on my wish list.
Expensive things and cheap things.
I want to be grateful for all I have and try to say thank you every day .
I have bought all my Xmas presents almost.
I bought some local products too.
Some of my family prefer Australian made local produce and I understand that.
I do buy from other countries as well although buying local is really great.
I bought local oranges and eggs from down the street which is really precious.
Even got some oranges for free.
I wanted to buy stråla advent candle from ikea but I do not think I can afford it.
I bought them little gift already but wanted to give them this Xmas candle as well but I need priorities my neigher first and that she has it well with good food etc
I actually bought my bf a six pack of beer as Xmas gift.
His favourite but he does not buy it often because it is a lot more expensive than other beer.
I wrapped it up already.
I do not think I can afford to buy more gifts.
I started buying in June I think.