Named Voices; Father (God), Jesus, Azriel, Gloria, Thomas, Arthur, Gunn, The Professor, Gregory, Claire, Gladys, Norda, Cassy, Lou,
Unnamed voices; Demons
First voice I ever heard was Gloria. I was 8. I had blown up at my mom for something stupid and was in my room crying and she comforted me and told me I had just been tired and maybe I should apologize. She would continue to comfort me to this day! I didn’t know her name or think of her as a voice though until Azriel introduced me to her one day as my spirit guide.
The next voice I started hearing was Jesus. I had prayed to God before but one night where I was very, very sad and lonely I reached out to him with all my heart and then Jesus was there and he say down with me and helped me solve EVERYTHING troubling me. I journaled the whole experience. I started being able to hear God too at around the same time. This was during freshman year of hs.
Azriel is my guardian angel. I met him through a meditation exercise, freshman year of high school I think. The first thing he said to me was “I love you.”
Thomas was introduced to me one day by Gloria. She said that he was another one of my spirit guides, here to help me.
I’m not 100% sure about all the other people…I know I first started having trouble with the demons sophomore year. Lou I think I met in my dreams before anything, he started appearing in my dreams when I was 11 or 12, but I didn’t know who he was until high school. I named him Lou because when I first began really speaking with him I thought he was the devil, Lucifer. He’s the only voice I named myself.
I have no idea when the Professor popped up, to be honest, or Claire or Gregory. I know I first met Gunn and Gladys in dreams as well. I had summoned Thomas in one of my dreams to hang out with and another boy was with him. When I asked the boy what his name was he said it was Gunn. I could distinctly tell he was unique from my regular dream characters and knew he was one of us. He’s been with us ever since. Gladys kept trying to dominate my dreams and control me. I had Gunn tell me who she was one dream where she was bossing us both around. Norda appeared in my dreams and caused trouble too, so did Cassy actually. I guess I met a lot of them through dreams…
Arthur I met sometime in high school as well. He introduced himself as my spirit guide that was in charge of helping me develop my spirituality, but I ignored him and pushed him away because he felt weird to me. Now I know he felt weird because he’s been done with reincarnation for quite some time now, so he is barely human by this point and much more spirit. He’s been very helpful as well.
I asked the Professor what they were and he told me to think of a barrier reef and how it was made up of thousands of tiny animals. He said that consciousness was kind of like that, and that you have many pieces of consciousness that form the ego, (the barrier reef!) which is you. The pieces all represent one pure form of your personality (like how Gladys represents my controlling side while Gunn represents my carefree, goofy side) and are created through experience.
In a healthy ego, all pieces of consciousness ebb and flow throughout the day depending on the situation and who you’re interacting with, which is why you can feel like so many different people over the course of a day. Some aspects are more dominant than others, and some are even repressed and almost never come out.
It also explains multiple personality disorder (DID) because the ego becomes fragmented and weak from trauma and thus the pieces are broken and vie for control. Pretty interesting, I think.