What about the things you CAN do?
Sure there are things you can’t do, but either work towards being able to do them, or stop focusing on them.
You’re not doing yourself any good with this way of thinking, you’ll only cause yourself panic and grief.
I know it’s hard, but you NEED to break out of that negative cycle you’re in.
You say there’s no recovery for you, but I beg to differ. I refuse to believe you’re the only person in the world who won’t get any better in any way.
You need to focus on the things you can do, and the small progresses you’re making, no matter how long time progress takes.
What exactly is keeping you from doing these things you say you can’t do? You keep saying you’re tormented by symptoms and you have intrusive thoughts, but you never specify what it is that makes you so unable to do anything.
It’s not that I don’t believe you.
I just think your negative way of thinking is hindering you, and as long as you keep believing there’s no hope for you and such, you won’t be able to make progress as fast as if you try to focus on the positive things.