The I in me

I’m just so lost. I’ve lost it all again and I’m to blame again. I ruin everything. Anything I touch crumbles beneath me and I can’t stop touching things.
I’m a blind man in a sensory garden designed to torture the soul. A butterfly in a frame, pinned to the backboard, feigned beauty and purposeless in form or function.
A lightning struck tree, marred but grasping for life in every breeze or dewdrop.

I got tics like a clock wound too tight, I got ticks like a dog out in the night,
I’m a dog, ain’t been treated right,
I’m a flighted bird, but can’t fly right,
There’s a meaning but the meaning ain’t right,
I’m a wronged man, I ain’t got no rights,
I am Fragile like a flower, desperate for light,
I’m a lit up bulb, too damn bright,
I’m a scare without the fright,
I am A super hero without the might,
I’m a consistent variable, Likewise, unburiable,
Im An alien, but unalienable to be sure,
I’m one of them cats, without any fur,
I am A fighting rooster, with no spur,
I am The disease, for which there is no cure,
I am Driven snow, but not pure,
Im A tackle box, with no lures,
I’m all seriousness, but absurd,
I am A plop in the bowl, but no turd,
I am A beautiful song, that has no words,
I’m a bloodcurdling scream gone unheard,
I am true love, and unequaled anger,
I am a best friend, and yet still a stranger,
I am safety, I am also danger,
I’m a part of a plan, never occurred,
I am Distant echoes…ever unsure,
I am The calmness, in violent outburst,
I am the best, of the worst,
I am food, when dying of thirst,
I am Last place, never saw first,
I’m a practitioner, with no church,
I am numbness, that really hurts,
I am A pair of shorts, no shirt,
I’m an earthworm, with no dirt,
I’m a supersoaker, that don’t squirt,
I am RSVP’d though nowhere to be,
I am nobody, still me…

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Sometimes you can get so overwhelmed you just don’t move. Making the same mistakes you did in the past, just going nowhere. It’s mater of slowing things down. Baby steps…Day by day, minute by minute if you have to. Just to keep going, growing and moving forward. Do reward yourself for any accomplishment. No matter how small.

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This is awesome

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