I’m between sad and happy about this, but thought I would share.
I changed therapists because of my previous therapist crossing certain uncrossable boundaries, and landed with a new spectacular therapist. She’s working with my pdoc and they’re pretty convinced that my alleged mental illness was substance induced. I still have depression and anxiety on and off for almost a year but no other symptoms. The docs currently think that Bipolar is not sufficient to explain my situation, and given the amount and years I consumed drugs they were pretty shocked substance induced psychosis wasn’t even on the table.
It will take a while, because it still might be a mental illness, we will only know after trying and treating.
I’m sad and angry, because… well, so much screw up between an array of docs that I’m tired as hell of this going around, and being told on and on that I have multiple mental illnesses, some of them lifelong and untreatable, when I could’ve been given hope. Also, screw ups with meds.
I’m happy, because well, it may not be life long after all.
If it all goes well, I’ll be treating the trauma and getting off meds slowly. (Just need a cooperative pdoc, mine doesn’t seem completely convinced and in the meanwhile I got TD and wasn’t taken off Invega)
And yeah, clean for 3 years now
This will be my last post here, so thank you all for your friendship and sorry if I ever crossed any boundaries with any of you.
Hey, Minnii. Glad to have you back. I can relate to the idea of substance induced psychosis. You might not think that alcohol can cause that, but if you drink alcoholically it can play a role in the development of mental illness. A lot of people in AA can tell you about that. However, it wasn’t substances alone in my case. I was teetering on the brink of psychosis for a long time before I started to drink insanely. I guess it was self medicating. Be sure you have the support of psychiatric professionals when you come off your psychotropic drugs. We’re pulling for you here.
You don’t mean that, right? It’s great that you’ve been clean for such a long time - a real achievement. Talking through the trauma with your therapist and weaning yourself off the prescription meds is the next step towards recovery. Depression makes us feel like crap.
Hey minnii come back to forum…we all need u…!!! Why would u say that this is ur last post…keep coming back sweety…i like u woman…!!! Take care anyways…
I’m kinda tired of forums really and the internet and all that. Takes up too much of my time. I go to another one regularly and the work I have there is enough.
That means there can be recovery, the brain can heal from drug induced psychosis given enough time. How is the airbnb job going? It’s pretty cool that there are innovative ways of making a living now. By the way, good to see you online again even if only briefly. You got stuff to do. Lol. I bet sometimes people make a mess because they’ve never been in such a cool place as Portugal.
I had something similar. Amphetamines triggered my hallucinations. And if I recall you had voices too when you were switching meds. My point is this, be optimistic but take it one day at a time. You were always the one giving pep talks, however it turns out it will be okay.
I wish you a bright and happy future. Take care of yourself.