Sometimes I both love and hate a person at the same time.
Also I read the Bible once and Jesus didn’t waste much time on hating people, he had better things to do.
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@Bee3 is right, @SnowTiger. That isn’t how Jesus has ever operated. What you’re going through sounds incredibly upsetting and frightening, but you can be assured that Jesus didn’t send you any messages like that.
I hope you guys are right. I found a message on my hand saying Jesus is going to bury me alive.
So I’ve been laboring under this thought that Jesus hates me and is gong to bury me.
It feels terrible, especially because I used to be a Christian. I used to love Jesus.
Now I haven’t gone to church in about a year. Maybe I should try going back.
Thank you for the kind words though. They do help!
Thanks I think that is a very important skill to have. I was very upset that the illness started to make me see and hear things straight from hell, which I never believed in or took seriously before. We are Jewish and we just dont talk about that ever and basically just look askance at it or consider it plain nonsense. It really pissed me off I mean. I was fortunate enough to work through that with higher doses of medication and adopting this approach.
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FWIW Jesus loved absolutely everyone, including his enemies. I don’t believe there is any chance that he could hate you. I am very sorry that you are in pain. I hope that you can gravitate toward the idea that Jesus would never do that. Your brain is just telling you that.
Those f>>>>> voices like a tape recorder over and over same ■■■■! shut up I would say but they never stopped telling me how horrible I am. Telling me I look horrible it was awful. almost a year, they watched me in the shower just making me feel terrible. I cant tell u why they stopped but they did. I still listen just to make sure they are gone. Zyprexa or were they real? I just don’t know. what makes the brain think this way and why me? ruined my career ruined my relationship and the person I used to be.
does anyone hear their friends voices talking trash? that was all I heard all the time…almost faint yelling saying “its me you bitch” calling me the worst possible things.
lorie1, I am sorry that you suffered so badly from the voices.
I am very happy that they stopped.
I think that you shouldn’t look back.
You should try to rebuild your life in the best way you can.
It is not certain that you will manage to return to where you were before illness struck.
But you should make every effort to recover.
For example , you can adopt a healthy diet and exercise.
It won’t necessarily help but its worth a try.
For me my life is also harmed in a huge way by schizophrenia.
It does HUGE damage to me.
But I try the best I can, lead a very healthy lifestyle and try to be cheerful and active to the best of my abilities.
And this is my recommendation.
You are not alone, lots of lives were ruined unfortunately by schizophrenia.
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Zyprexa has been a life saver. Thankyou for the kind words. I can deal most of the time. I just fear the voices will come back and the weeks of not sleeping. Sorry you have had a rough time also. Hopefully we can all move on.
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sometimes you cant help the bad language. U need to explain things for others to understand that it happens to others.
I tend to hear former friends voices all the time. Almost every waking hour even on medication. Sometimes they are supportive, sometimes they call me down. I usually find that when I don’t do what I perceive as wrong activities in my daily life that they are more supportive. However, when I am doing negative and detrimental things in my life, without getting into too much detail, they can be really negative towards me.
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Sorry for the late reply. Yes, sometimes I hear voices talking trash about me. Like people I’ve met talking behind my back. It can be difficult. Luckily, lately I haven’t been hearing voices too much. Have a wonderful day.