Thank you for replying, IndustrialLad. Certainly, goals like losing weight are doable but challenging. It also sounds great/healthy that you are looking to make a friend or two. Some friendship will improve your outlook. What are your current interests? As for romantic relationships, that sounds possible, too. Would you consider online dating? Just a suggestion… Don’t let your looks concern you. I’ve seen your selfie on this site. You are attractive. Hygiene and personality are BIG factors. Also, you don’t have to mention right away you have a psychotic disorder. They might have a psychotic disorder, too. Is there any where in your area suitable for some light volunteer work?
Regarding being cheerful, I hear you, but maybe you would feel more genuinely cheerful if you lost some weight. I say that because if I lost some weight I would smile more. Back issues are another thing though, that’s a tough one - very sorry for this. Do you think your back will improve when you lose some weight?
Being a custodian is a good idea, if it wouldn’t aggravate your back and is not too far away. Living in a rural area presents a different set of problems. I hope you can work out the transportation issues. Can you pay someone to drive you? Would that make sense?