Well the goals that most of the time I feel I can meet are to lose weight and live independently. Also to get a friend or two. The ones I feel like I may never meet are to get a job and get a girlfriend.
There aren’t that many jobs in this area. I see maybe 3 or 4 listed most of the time that are true entry level jobs. I’ve applied at one but I don’t even know if I’d be any good at it. It’s retail sales associate. There’s issues that I can’t move fast and I don’t know if I can effectively fake being cheerful on a regular basis as you are supposed to be happy and positive for that job according to the internet. Plus I have back issues and the ad said there’s a lot of bending and reaching.
I think I could be a Custodian but I have to get a bus pass first as the jobs doing that are too far away.
I don’t really think there’s too much else I can do. Too many physical and mental issues.
As for the girlfriend part, I live in a very low population area. And as far as my looks…maybe I’ll be a 5/10 once I lose another 30 pounds, maybe not. The only thing I could think of to do to socialize is a support group. But there may not be time before/after for talking. Even if I meet someone nice, if I don’t have a job for months or years, they’ll probably tell me to take a hike or they want to be friends. Also just because they’re going to this group presumably because they have mental health issues, they could still be repulsed by the fact that I have a psychotic disorder.
The Meetups in this area are all extremely boring or stuff I can’t do like A.I., Coding,Small Business, Outdoor Adventure (I don’t have the money to buy the necessary equipment) and a lot of it is very far away.
I’ve never been in a relationship although I suppose if I had acted differently I would have likely been in at least one.