Thanks. Not everything is paranoia. People do harass others. If he continues to scream at me through my ceiling i will turn him in to property management. Trying to record him in a bit
Clonazepam is a good thing.
Season changes make me nervous.
I’m such a terrible person . I told my mum that I want to take an overdose or jump out of my window or some ■■■■ like that, then I sat laughing about it for like 5 minutes.
This is funny to me now. The thought of doing those things to myself. Ha ha ha ha.
She doesn’t find it funny though… her face turned white.
I read something today that said people become bullies because they socially lack the “ABC’s” - Acceptance, Belonging, and Control as well as meaning.
So I thought about that for awhile, assuming I had them already from either myself or someone else. And you know what? I feel as if I am confronting my demons. As if I am erasing all the bad things in my life and I feel great!
does a little dance
Hey.
We love you. You don’t have to say stupid things to get that from us. We love you anyways and always
I don’t want to do those things to get loved.
It is the only way I can lose contact with the people in my head who say they can only leave if I do something like that.
And secretly, it’s to show my mental health team that their treatment plans aren’t ■■■■■■■ working. (Not swearing at You, but at them lol).
People think I am irresponsible and selfish when I do these things.
Am I really though? For just wanting some peace and quiet???
It sounds like a lot to deal with and to people who don’t know - might not understand it. I appreciate that you don’t want to do these things though. It shows me how much you’re really struggling and how much you really care <3 I’ll try to help you but there is only so much I can do from another country.
If that’s okay with you that is (to help)
Thanks
I fell asleep at around 11:30pm… woke up 3 hours later feeling wide awake. Wtf is this?? Now I’ve been awake for nearly an hour.
Comfort eating has always been my main coping mechanism but now I feel sick all the time so I can’t.
Even now I have painful indigestion from just eating a normal amount of food yesterday.
But the doctors say I’m fine. Idk what to do
Are you stressed out by something, like things youve mentioned? Anxiety? I get sick to my stomach because of anxiety
Well I might be able to help you figure that out. Would it be okay with you to discuss this in a private chat so that people don’t distract if they want to get involved?
Im stressed because nothing is making me feel better. I think I’m improving but then I relapse over and over again.
Anxiety sucks… are you on any meds for it?
Yes that would be okay
Sorry. Didn’t mean to be rude
Yeah clonazepam. My enviroment is causing some of it.maybe you can get a therapist and talk it out for some suggestions. I feel like nothing is getting better either. I have tiny moments of happiness then bleh…
No youre fine. Im off kilter today
I still like you. I don’t mind if you speak with Jess. I just wanted our conversation to be private for particular reasons.
Im sorry arturo. I didnt realize that.