I just about to have coffee here.
I love my gorgeous beautiful great boyfriend so much.
I thought my boyfriends x and his scorpion may of been in his body last night when we had sex.
I have not orgasmed last couple or few times we have had sex.
I used to orgasm every time with him.
I just felt violated and that he should not of let her in my body n neither should I have.
Because I felt she was in his body .
I love ️ him so much .
We have sex once a week or once a fortnight.
I am not connecting with him or with my .
I try doing Exercise but still not feeling in control of it not in touch with it either.
I have thought his x talks dirty to him telepathicly which is cheating and that his dog talks to him too so we don't have privacy and intimacy and sacredness.
I also feel like I'm not in my body a lot of the time or unconscious or something.
There was a moment of a few seconds where I was prescient and was starting to come but did not.
He is so precious to me and I want us to improve with each other.
I will try to improve how I can ,wear makeup more often cause he likes it etc
It is not the first time I have felt he is "spiritually " with his x or possessed by her and it feels very violating because that's cheating I think.
Unless agreed upon otherwise.
I also thought his spirit was making love to his x on Valentine's Day but that he used another body but that his body was with me not having sex.
Maybe I should be elsewhere too then cause should could work both ways.
Most important might be that our bodies are faithful so no double dipping etc .
Keep it clean n true there.
I am grateful we can have sex with each other and that we both are able to orgasm even if it may not always happen .
I don't think I am delusional but maybe I am..
I do not think I am sexually into woman cause the ones I have around in spirit have just been jealous and after my man.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight and always have been.
I think it might depend on who is in the body..
So I thought his scorpion was in his body...
I thought the thought and that's a woman.
I feel so guilty for thinking it even maybe I'm so wrong.
I'm so sorry.
Am I having paranoia cause I felt attacked by some of his friends n family ...
I once thought of a boyfriend with his x talking about having me as their slave but I do not want that to happen and it's illegal but I had thought once about a boyfriend wanting to use me.
Not physical work as such.
I am anonymous yo.
So I write this anonymously.
He said he wants to spend rest of his life with me and I with him too but I got to stop thinking wierd stuff etc
I believe he is faithful .
i think we can improve with each other and I think their are malicious spirits n people who want to break us up.
They have not succeeded so far.