It breaks my ️ heart.
My man seems to cheat on me spiritually.
Valentine's Day I believe his body was with me and his energy was making love to his x.
Now I could see his spirit in the room making out with his friends girlfriend who I suspect might be his x as well cause she has been so jealous of me and attacking me.
So disrespectful to treat me like that.
I am so good to him and that's how he thanks me.
I want a faithful man not just in body but in spirit too but if that's the way it's going to be then my spirit should be sexual with others too.
Thing is others might fall in love with ones spirit then.
And what about our other species ...
I used to have a romantic thought that if you are in a relationship then all your species should be together but then again my cat might not want to be with his cat....
His dog is with someone else I think.
N nature etc
I do not know how I can endure his dinners.
I suffer immensely having dinners with people including with my own family.
So maybe I should try give up that romantic thought I once had and expectations of my man.
The woman here always flirts with him and I think it's a bit tacky to do that infront of his girlfriend like his other female friend who hugged him for over five minutes pressing her tits against him and she was all over him.
Maybe I have others that my spirit can be with them so it works both ways or I be darned.
That's our business .
Maybe our spirits are with others but it's not fair on me when I'm alone .
Most important thing is perhaps that his lovewand (d###) does not dip in anyone else or get touched sexually by anyone else and no kissing ,hugging too long ,touching inappropriately etc
Physicaly faithful is something though hey.
I can not talk to him about it.
Maybe both our spirits can be with others but it's not fair in me when I'm always alone and he is with others.
I am concerned he has nosy psychos as friends and family that attack etc
I have thought there's something wrong with them.
But I thought that about people at dance too but they were jealous really.
Darn my jaw clenching.
It was better a few days then we had a dinner and my jaw started clenching and it hurts.
I had to leave the dinner table.
I can't and I won't!!!
Do dinners like that.
After half hour I will have to excuse myself.
I will not have dinners for two hours where I suffer so much.
My sacred Anders is well I hope.
Anyway we went grocery shopping today.
A woman went to give me food when it was another woman who took my order.
I actually just saw the food coming at me I did not even see her face.
They commented they do not look so much alike.
I wore high heeled boots shopping.
I am not good at walking in heels except for s pair of stiletto slip ins I owned in Sweden that fit perfectly I think n were comfortable.
I do not like it when someone or others are in my body and I do not feel like myself.
I get tired easily and can not even do dinners with my own family so I might try explaining this to his people.