I was in different mood when I posted this, and now am in different mood trying to make a reply. 
Thank you for believing this, I hope I did not mislead you.
Really, what I think that we supposedly to act according to conscience is to become the person we wanted to be. No double-hearted. We may want to become the person who we are but at the same time our words and actions may reflect that of what other persons want us to be.
I think that is why we keep condemning ourselves for doing things that we do not want to.