Nothing about our respective illnesses is simple @princess, we don’t know each other and I’m no expert on anything, i am not judging or trying to enable things or anything like that, i am curious, because i read the above posts and I am not ashamed to admit i am lost and would like to know, if you are willing to share calmly and you feel like i deserve to know, the whole story on this situation from your perspective. Its curiosity driven by me unfettered need to understand things. i have no relatable experiences and want to understand this more. Like the hands, why are they toxic? What is your diagnosis if you don’t mind sharing, and how long has this been tormenting you? You can tell me to ■■■■ and mind my own business, i just think it would help in the future if we all understood your perspective more clearly, from your words.