oh, thanks to all for your replies
Me, I am really swollen, its obvious. Its like they bloated me with some bad chemistry... This evening I am not calm at all, I took a klonopin, sorry if I seem space... I am space right now... I am tired but cant sleep cause I dont waste a lot of energy in the day, its some state like this. I just saw this friend of mine today and I wonder of the long term effects on this med. My pdocs care about only my mental health but I am already 91 kilos. I put 30 kilos with the Zyprexa for 8 months. I even thought this evening if I can die from this med, you know-its written in its notice (''sudden death'')... wow... But I am still a lot symptomatic on the sz side. I am often anxious and I have physical pains because of my psyche... ill have to ask my doc why I am swollen- the heart, water retention, some other stuff?... I also smoke too much to be honest - 2 packs per day(40 cigaretes)... Maybe its my heart who is suffering because of the med, I am not sure.