Take the pills, just like in the movies dont hide them under your tongue.
It took me a long time to admit i had SZ cause during some very bad pschotic years i also ended up having a huge operation that scared me and i blamed everything on the scar etc.
SZ was undetectable as i believed my paranoia and voices were cause from me being inadaquite compared to others by having a bad scar. Weird i know but thats how i thought.
Then the delusions got so ingrained in me nothing could break em. Sometimes they flare up and sometimes the hidden beneath me.
Meds truly help. I puked, shat and couldnt eat trying meds. I thought i was dying from taking meds, but it the end and currently they truly do help.
You on the right path sir