I decided to take my pills. Eventually.
I’m trying to admit I have schizophrenia but I’m always ending up denying it. I don’t know what to do.
Besides, I was so close to the suicide due to voices.
I really believe that one day I will end up whether in a mental hospital or suicide.
Mate,
Take the pills, just like in the movies dont hide them under your tongue.
It took me a long time to admit i had SZ cause during some very bad pschotic years i also ended up having a huge operation that scared me and i blamed everything on the scar etc.
SZ was undetectable as i believed my paranoia and voices were cause from me being inadaquite compared to others by having a bad scar. Weird i know but thats how i thought.
Then the delusions got so ingrained in me nothing could break em. Sometimes they flare up and sometimes the hidden beneath me.
Meds truly help. I puked, shat and couldnt eat trying meds. I thought i was dying from taking meds, but it the end and currently they truly do help.
You on the right path sir
Glad to hear you’re taking the meds. I’ve been to hospital lots of times, it’s nothing to be ashamed of or worried about.