I clean a bit my house sometimes, I watch tv, I am on internet,i read, I go sometimes to the food shops and the pharmacy but that’s all. is it a severe low functioning lol? the rest of the time I dont do anything :(…
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Although I should say that I do not trust my mind I lost all my self esteem and I live in constant fear of going crazy again and loathe the medication that I have to take.
So yea basically my life is over
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@MeghillaGorilla1 I would be happy to borrow life years from you if you permit 
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@Erez_Shmerling. A couple of months ago I would have taken you up on that offer.
I lost 15 years of life to this illness I am 40 now.
I still have lots of problems from this although I am not delusional or hearing voices. I am permanently scarred
Haha @Anna1 I wish I could do some of the things that you do…
Read, watch TV, clean… a dream for me.
You should appreciate what you have!!!
One day there will be a cure and you will do even better.
For me I cling to anything that I have, mainly this forum, chess and exercise.
@MeghillaGorilla1 I feel that I lost essentially my “entire life” due to this illness as it affected
me already in the prodromal stage, prodromal schizophrenia.
I trust that the wounds will heal quickly when a cure is developed, even if you will be a senior by then.
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What happened ? I was on those meds also and get really stiff muscles and if i don’t take the other meds to help with side effects. I’ll get stiff joints and get crippled up. I put up with the pain because they work on the sz
I put that I’m pretty symtomless and pass as a norm. But without meds I can’t function and would probably end up homeless if I was lucky, I definitely could have no friends or family,
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Risperdal gave me hyperprolactenimia which is when your prolactin levels are dangerously high. Makes your risk for breast cancer spike and makes you put on lbs like no other, I was gaining 10 lbs a month. My APN wouldn’t have let me stay on it even if I had wanted to.
Zoloft severely irritated my bladder to where I couldn’t sleep at night because of how frequently I was peeing, it was like my bladder couldn’t hold any amount of liquid not even a single drop. After weeks of little to no sleep because of this and my psychosis acting up due to the no sleep I had to quit it. I tried to go back on it later hoping maybe the irritation was caused by something else but nope it came right back once I was back on Zoloft.
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Thanks @Erez_Shmerling, I do not know though.
Many years of not succeeding and being fulfilled by doing something that I love has left a big emotional wound that I don’t know how to heal. I think we all need to have meaning in our lives and be proud of who we are and what we do. That’s very difficult when you have a disorder or the mind and I am not always who I say I am. The lack of credibility is devastating
@MeghillaGorilla1 it is hard to sympathize with you because you set your bar of expectations from life
impossibly high. You say many bad years but for me I was affected by illness from early childhood
prodromal schizophrenia. That you lived some of your life in a state you would consider good is something
to be grateful for.
I think that you should be proud of the life you lead, simply put a positive spin on it.
You don’t owe anything to anyone.
If most people would compare themselves to Elon Musk then 99.9 percent of the population would
think of themselves as losers and suckers.
Stop looking around you and comparing yourself to supermen.
Because many many people compared to you are supermen.
Stop being jealous and accept your fate,
while taking opportunities to improve if you get them.
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Wow I feel this really hard. I have nightmares about my psychosis getting bad again.
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On meds my illness is mild. Have a few down days and a few symptoms still there. Off my meds I can’t function.
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Sorry for taking so long to respond. I’m taking:
Risperdal Consta 37.5 mg injection every 2 weeks for psychosis and mood
Geodon 240 mg by mouth every day for psychosis and mood
Seroquel 200 mg by mouth every night for psychosis and mood
Celexa 20 mg by mouth every day for depression
Klonipin 0.25 mg by mouth once a day as needed for anxiety
I’m the same as Mike, although I don’t really suffer from negatives. And I haven’t had any positive symptoms for many months now. I’m able to work and travel and socialise no problems.
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Gina2, how is that medication cocktail working for you?