Hey everyone, please hang in there! This ■■■■ almost ruined my life, but I got better!!
I was misdiagnosed with schizophrenic episodes (which was actually dissociation due to stress and depression).
I took Invega for almost 3 months, 6 mg tablets, with Valdoxan 25 mg.
I got worse and worse as I lost my ability to plan, think, have conversations. It was almost painful to think, all my actions had to be planned in very short step-by-step sequences, my short-term memory and concentration were drastically impaired. At one point I was almost physically unable to get out of bed. I knew I wanted to move but my body wouldn't.
Then I found out by another doctor that I'd been misdiagnosed and that the medication could be harmful, especially combined with some other medication I was taking. The doctor told me to go cold turkey immediately and I did.
What happened next was that I experienced severe anhedonia, anorgasmia, inability to think, I couldn't sleep deeply or for long periods, I had horrible nightmares but couldn't tell if they scared me or not as I didn't have any emotions. I couldn't cry. I couldn't mourn. I understood what had happened to me but I couldn't feel angry or scared about it, I was like an empty shell. Food lost it's taste, I didn't feel love, joy, arousal, hate, stress, anxiety, shame, nothing. Not even physical pain (discovered this as I hurt myself badly a couple of times) or any kind of pleasure. I was suicidal, literally every aspect of my life had turned into a mess, affecting my family in the worst ways possible.
This happened 7 months ago. About 2 months ago I started experiencing a change, emotions coming back (mostly negative ones, but they were more than welcome as at least I wasn't a zombie anymore). Today I'm almost completely recovered, thank god!! I'd say that I still suffer from depression but I can cry, feel anxious, unhappy, sad, nervous, even happy and motivated at times. I laugh a lot more and I'm able to fake smiles, participate in discussions and joke. I feel physical pain and I'm able to orgasm again. I've started working out somewhat and food has gotten it's taste back.
I strongly advise you guys to take magnesium, I think it helped me a lot. But also the support from family and friends. Don't give up! The brain is amazingly complex and definitely able to repair itself.
Sending y'all lots of love