After a span of 86 days, I did not shower at all. Same clothes everyday. My socks I found out had gotten holes in them from walking around so much and my toenails grew so long.
During the shower it was hard to deal with the stinging of the water from the shower head. I thought in head If I just go through with this and just breathe I will be cleansed and shed the old nasty me.
The fear I used to have when there would be hand prints or words on the mirror there weren’t any this time. I still checked tho. I just can’t believe I waited that long and how I just didn’t give a ■■■■ about my hygiene. When I’d go out in public I’d go to Walmart and go to the deoderant section and spray myself with Axe body spray sometimes. To covery up my nasty greasy hair that grew to shoulder length now, I’d wear a hat when out in public or going to the gym. I just couldn’t get out of it until I forced myself to do this today. I became alive again after that shower. I feel one with the world again. Before it felt like I was on cruise control and in my own world day after day. The days would go by so fast I remember.
Since I am now coming back to reality and I had set the microwave on fire just before my shower today and I did that on purpose. I wanted to get close to my family again and let them know I"m not a ghost anymore. I am still here. I hope I never have this kind of episode of horrible hygiene ever again.
I had no problem taking showers in my teens to early 20’s. I never had that feeling of being watched or things being written on the mirror saying I was gonna die when I stepped out.
Great job!! That’s very exciting. Just remind yourself of how nothing bad or scary happened when you did shower, and how it’s much easier to shower than have to try to cover up and hide yourself in public.
That’s great news! I know if I go longer than three or four days I can’t stand myself. I hate showering but I hate stinking more. LOL… I force myself and i always feel better for it.
Congratulations. Keep it up!!