The time has a way of passing. When I was in my early thirties and on Haldol I used to lay in bed fifteen hours a day and daydream of easy ways to commit suicide. When they put me on Geodon and Seroquel things got a lot better. Now I’m 55 and I’m starting to see myself as kicking the bucket in about twenty years. In a way, I am a little eager for it to happen, but I figure I can stick out the time. Keep working with your med’s. You’ll find the right combination.